Because I'm from NJ I can ask this question. You can hear Joe Jr. from "while you were sleeping" say it, "So, Luc...How you doin'?" This is also the term my loving husband uses when he likes how I look or what I'm wearing. It's associated with every Mob stereotype out there, movies, TV, real life...oops not supposed to talk about such things!
How did this post come to be? I've already forgotten! I know I wanted to touch on my last post about PTSD but then I got to saying "how you doin'" in my head and I'm side tracked.
Do you remember the movie "You've Got Mail" with Meg Ryan and Tom Hanks? Remember the part when "Joe" is sitting up in bed doing the Godfather trying to figure out how to explain what it means to "take it to the mattresses"? Take the cannolli, leave the gun. Or in Good fellas when Karen is at the end of her rope with Henrys cheating and she is sitting on top of him with a gun to his head confronting him? "Put the gun down Karen"...another line my husband often uses minus the gun and pretty nighty! It's his way of bringing me to my sense and out of my crazy, very effective.
All classics, right? Okay so I got off topic again. But I've completely forgotten what I was going to say now anyway....so HAPPY THURSDAY XXXOOO
Sunny Spot
Thursday, September 27, 2012
Monday, September 10, 2012
Post Traumatic Stress
Is it possible to have PTS for 11 years? I ask because every year right before 9/11 I find that I am very agitated and anxious. I know last year I posted about the same thing, but the day after and my recollection of the day. Today I feel as if I should call in sick tomorrow and spend the day trying to shake this horrible feeling of doom and dread...but I know if I do that I will spend the day glued to the TV to watch the ceremonies.
Like I have said in the past, I did not lose anyone that day but of late I have encountered a few reminders of that day. A few weeks back I read a book called "Love you, Mean it" written by 4 young women all who lost their husbands on 9/11...they all worked for Cantor Fitzgerald. It was a bittersweet book and I cried more then I expected as I felt every pain they felt. It wasn't on my "list" that day, it was a last minute biography pick up on my way to check out my books...I don't regret reading it, but it made my heart hurt to read it. While reading this book I ran into an old school acquaintance at a concert 100 miles from home who was a first responder on 9/11 who is now a retired fireman due to medial issues. He is married with twin 3 year old girls and I hope and pray that he is okay and lives to see those little girls grow up. Then last night I sat down and watched Julie and Julia and was again reminded of the aftermath of 9/11 as Julie worked at a call center helping those with claims and questions. I won't lie and say "it was just a movie" because it wasn't, she was a real person dealing with peoples hurt and anger and desperation and was able to turn that desperation she felt around when she cooked. To that I can relate...when I have something to work out or am mad or upset I cook. Much to the dismay of my family who end up having to eat more then they wanted and sometimes poorly executed new recipes. But I digress....
My question still stands, is it possible to suffer from post traumatic stress 11 years later? Is it hormonal for me because I was 7 months pregnant when this life changing event happened? Is it survivors guilt? Is it all of the above? Does anyone else suffer the week before and after the way I do?
I will close here and wish everyone and safe and happy 9/10 XXXOOO
Like I have said in the past, I did not lose anyone that day but of late I have encountered a few reminders of that day. A few weeks back I read a book called "Love you, Mean it" written by 4 young women all who lost their husbands on 9/11...they all worked for Cantor Fitzgerald. It was a bittersweet book and I cried more then I expected as I felt every pain they felt. It wasn't on my "list" that day, it was a last minute biography pick up on my way to check out my books...I don't regret reading it, but it made my heart hurt to read it. While reading this book I ran into an old school acquaintance at a concert 100 miles from home who was a first responder on 9/11 who is now a retired fireman due to medial issues. He is married with twin 3 year old girls and I hope and pray that he is okay and lives to see those little girls grow up. Then last night I sat down and watched Julie and Julia and was again reminded of the aftermath of 9/11 as Julie worked at a call center helping those with claims and questions. I won't lie and say "it was just a movie" because it wasn't, she was a real person dealing with peoples hurt and anger and desperation and was able to turn that desperation she felt around when she cooked. To that I can relate...when I have something to work out or am mad or upset I cook. Much to the dismay of my family who end up having to eat more then they wanted and sometimes poorly executed new recipes. But I digress....
My question still stands, is it possible to suffer from post traumatic stress 11 years later? Is it hormonal for me because I was 7 months pregnant when this life changing event happened? Is it survivors guilt? Is it all of the above? Does anyone else suffer the week before and after the way I do?
I will close here and wish everyone and safe and happy 9/10 XXXOOO
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